Letter Never Sent

Bloggers O' The World:

Do you ever write a post, and then delete it?
Like, you wrote it to get it out of your system, but then decided, "I can't share that!"

Well, I did this yesterday. I write emails for a living now (hehe, fun for me!), and this one email perturbed me so much, I wrote a rather angry rant about it. But I could not post it, lest I be fired. I will say, this customer asked me how I could sleep at night. She felt insulted that I had directed her to the web page rather than repeat all of that information to her. Sheeeeesh.

I sleep better than most people, at night. Bean testifies to this. She laughs at me all the time for my ability to sleep through Armageddon. It's a talent; what can I say?

But there are other letters never sent.

I learned to keep the really depressing or angry thoughts to my journaling, because really, these moments pass. Positivity is the best thing in life, and I find it infectious. Sure, we all get down, or angry, or whatnot. If you knew about the very disturbing depressions I have had, you'd call the doctors immediately. And writing is definitely the best therapy ever! For someone like me, anyway.

But I was taught somewhere along the way to project the positive as much as possible, so that's what I try to do. Of course, the weird thing is, I love, love, love the Dark Things in literature the most. So I support that as much as possible. I'm a Poe devotee, for God's sake. It doesn't get much darker than Ed Poe! haha I love calling him Ed. He Rules.

Anyhow, I'm just spouting off here; there's really something beautiful about the Dark Side in all of us, I think. I just can't really share that unless a therapist is present (hello, Marilyn!). haha Well, that, or a nice glass of wine. Which actually takes away ALLLLLLL of the pain. Yay wine! ha

Perhaps this is why I like wine so much. Cause I am secretly an uber-depressed gothic chick who loves the color black and long walks in the rain. haha

I have no idea what this post is about. I just wanted to comment on what we say and what we don't say. I think both are important.

In other news, I am stealing this personality quiz from Peej! Mua ha ha-You can't arrest me!


1) In a house you'd built and designed yourself, assuming that the normal pleasantries are already taken care of (Kitchen, Bathroom, Somewhere to sleep) - what room would you spend extra time turning into your inner sanctum?

THE LIBRARY!!!

2) What was the last thing that made you cry?

The movie 'Cars.' I cried like an insane person. haha

3) Can you associate colours with emotions? If so, what colour is Joy, what colour is pain, what colour is anger, and what colour is happiness?

Joy=Yellow
Pain=Black
Anger=Red
Happiness=White

4) What is your first reaction when you see someone in a convincing alien costume?

Wow, that is AWESOME!!!

5) In a life or death situation you are given the choice of eradicating an entire animal/insect/bird/fish species or falling on your own sword. Assuming you do not commit hari-kari, what species would take the fall instead?

June Bugs (Beetles). I am terrified of them. Really. Horrified.

6) If the ongoing war between cats and dogs escalated into blind ugly violence, could you take sides? If so, which side would you take?

Cats are my favorite animal in all of the Earth, and I am deathly afraid of dogs, so yeah. Cats RULE! (Especially black ones).

7) Accidentally while boiling your breakfast egg, you somehow crack the 4th dimension and find that you can time travel. Unfortunately you realise that it can only happen the once. Where would you go, what would you do, what would you see and when?

I'd go shake Will's hand and say, "Dear God, you are Brilliant."

8) Have you ever dyed your hair one of the following colours: Blue, Purple, Bright Red, Green - If so, which? And what made you wash it out?

I tried to do red so I could be Scully for H Ween, but I look terrible as a redhead, so I washed it out. I dye it blonde all the time. I guess that does not count.

9) You come into work one morning early, meaning to catch up with your emails and a bit of internet browsing. Unfortunately you walk in on two of the cleaners boning away on your desk. What would be your first reaction after you'd stopped projectile vomiting?

I'd just have to turn around and leave. I can't watch real people have sex. It seems kind of overpersonal to me. But love scenes in movies, I can watch all day.


10) Which Simpsons character would you choose to have as your neighbour?

Lionel Hutz, or Troy McClure. I loved all Phil Hartman characters. Even more than Simpsons, though, I'd want Stewie Griffin from Family Guy around. He kills me.

Sorry for randomness and thievery today. My mind is quite gone thanks to training.

Have a great day!